DREAMER

No matter what they are, or who. either they are boys or girls, or even just a stuff like cars, computers, games, electric cigarette , action figure, sports, hobbies, social media, alcohol or even food. If they steal whats mine, they turns become my enemy .  Steal means, steal my position like become priority.  But, I know the subject and objects.  I will blame the subject, but still I can eliminate the objects if necessary, like the subject defend them than me , or when it become too far, I can eliminate the subject, too . or both of you. -The dark side of Taurean combination of stubborn, dominant and possessive when you annoy a calm Bull. It will be different if I still be priority, you let me in and be honest. Believe me, it will be quite beautiful balance . you can do whatever you want, and my dark side doesn't come out,  and we will enjoying together .

Jakarta, 5 September 2018 Bisakah kita menjaga jika sudah tidak ada rasa? Bisakah kita bercerita jika sudah tidak ada cinta? Karna bercinta pun tidak harus dengan cinta Akankah kita terluka jika sudah tidak ada suka? Akankah kita tersakiti jika sudah tidak ada peduli? Lalu mengapa mengasihi sesuatu yang sudah usai? Lalu mengapa kembali jika sudah memutuskan pergi? Jika berpisah adalah jalan, Kembali bukan pilihan Jika masih ingin bersama, mengapa harus berpisah? Jika memang ingin berpisah, mengapa masih bersama? Karena sejujurnya, rasa tak akan pernah padam. Ia hanya karam dan tenggelam. Dan kadang yang sudah pudar Kembali ke permukaan dengan sapaan “apa kabar?” Hidup kadang selucu itu… Kembali ke permukaan bukan berarti kembali mengarungi bersama, Kadang hanya memori yang kembali hangat membara. Karena kami adalah manusia. Selayaknya kami mencintai Tuhan, namun tetap melakukan dosa Kami pun mungkin akan mendua, walau tetap me

We think we love something, but we didn’t. We just drunk and addicted to the objects. If love produce a dopamine, which is a chemical helps regulate movement, attention, learning and emotional responses, the chemical that you can found in cocaine and other drugs. So, we can said love is drugs too. When we falling in love (or when we think we falling in love), we can act so emotional and stop thinking rationally, blame dopamine. But, just like the other drugs, we cant ‘high’ all the time, we need more dose for feeling high and drunk again, but when we don’t get it, we dying, we cant control ourselves, cant control our emotion, just like a junkie who don’t get their drugs. Pain, hurt, sick. What we can do just scream, cry and feel so angry.                 I think that’s me. I just realize that he’s my personal drug, and when I cant get my supply, I got crazy. Is it healthy? Just like coffee. I’m addicted to coffee, I got dizzy if I don’t drink at least two cups of coff