DREAMER

Sometimes, I got random thought in street when I go to work. “Why I have to wake up in the morning and go to office, I can work from home or anywhere?” “Why I feel they (office) dont treat me well? Dont give any suit compensation?” “Why I have to looking for other corporate/office to fit what I wants?” And I find the answer of own. First, cause you can’t get anything you want, that’s life, the big great joke. If you wanna be ordinary, you have to follow the rules. But if you wanna do whatever you want, you create your own rule and you will get your own risk, by yourself. And I realize, I have no power or preparation or even money to had my own path, own way, I dont have any brave like that, yet . And the answer for the second and third questions is same... Because we are human. Looking for fittable job and salary, just like looking for partner in life, like looking perfect lover. Being in office, just like being in relationship. There’s take and give, and when

We knew each other since 2009, he was my (not so) childhood friends, we supposed to be elementary friends, but to be honest, I didn’t know him at the time. We met four years later after elementary graduation, in some elementary reunion, but nothing happen. We just say ‘hey’ then stick around in each other place, we never get closer, we just a stranger with “long lost friends” label. Maybe we meet several times in several reunion and texting several times, but it doesn’t change anything. We have our own adventure of love, he with his girlfriend-s, crush, or girls around him. And me, I have some adventure too, from the player, the good boy, the jerk until the one I think is my true love, the one I think is my last. We have a history who made us like we are now. Then…. After our own upside down of love, We met six months ago, nope, he found me full of agony – dying in hospital bed, bloody fucking bleeding because of the game I come into, and that’s a shame for me to look so wea