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Happy Valentine guys… Pas banget bukan valentine kali ini jatuh di hari Sabtu, it means malem minggu. Gimana valentine kalian? Romantic kah, sweet kah, mewah kah, sederhana kah, sekalian anniversary kah? Banyak loh, ada beberapa temen gue yang valentine kemarin merupakan 1 st year anniversary nya, wow! Atau kalian berdalih tidak merayakan karna bingung merayakan dengan siapa, hahaha. Valentine gak harus sama pacar loh. Temen gue contohnya, mereka merayakan malam valentine hanya dengan makan es buah rame-rame, dan cowok semua, what a sweet moment kan. Gue salah satu orang yang suka merayakan hari-hari penting just like valentine, mother’s day, father’s day, birthday, anniversary, or ladies night maybe #eh. Saat mother’s day dulu gue belikan nyokap bunga, sampai gue liat bunga itu dibuang dan gue gak pernah beliin bunga lagi. Gue beliin cup cakes, dan gak dimakan. Gue bukan tipe pendendam tapi gue cewek normal yang suka mengingat-ngingat moment, dan itu moment yang cukup meny

Some people said, “write down your feeling, let them free” and I write down all my mourn, and they say I’m maudlin and weak. I write down all of my sarcasm, and they say I’m jerk and bitch. So I ask some people, and they say “ If you angry and sad, don’t let your bad words comes out, cause emotion would change but words don’t ” so what should I do to express my emotion? And some people say, “ Its better to cry than angry. Tears will clean your heart, but the sarcasm increase the negative ” so I start the cryin it loud, and they say I’m a weakest girl. So what should I do? Always keep it alone till I depressed and lose my mind, and be a drinker or junky who always drunk and addicted to something? Is that you want? So let me consume my caffeine, my alcohol, my dark chocolate, crying a loud and sleep a lot, and laugh to act like I’m not weak in front of you, all of you jerk From the deep other side of me